Memories Of What Used To Be...

I wonder if he remembers me
Or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if he thinks of us
Or if he finds it useless
I wonder how things would be
If he had never left me
I wonder how he is
And if I'm still a love of his
I think about him everyday
And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made
While we were laying in the shade
I think about all we said
And the lives we lead
To not know
Where to go
To not know where to find
A place where he may hide
To not be able to see his face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses
For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
If given a day
What would happen
If I could have him
What joy it would bring
To hear him sing
What would I feel
If he were here for real
I miss him each day
That he is away
I miss him looking out for me
The way it used to be
I miss his love
That protected me like a glove
I miss him
So much it's made my heart dim
I wonder if he still cares
That's a question that tears
I wonder what he's like
If he'd tell me to take a hike
I wonder if he fears
That I don't hold him dear
But most of all
I wonder if he still loves me
Or if I'm just a memory
Of what used to be